Deepika Padukone on going public with depression diagnosis: ‘Initially, I felt we were being hush-hush about it’


Bollywood actor Deepika Padukone mainstreamed the discourse round psychological sickness by opening up about her battle with depression in 2015. It was unparalleled for a profitable film star to confess that she wasn’t feeling nicely mentally. Six years later, Deepika shares that the choice to talk about her psychological well being in public wasn’t rapid.

During a Clubhouse session, the actor stated she and other people round her were acutely aware of not letting her well being points grow to be public and therefore were “scared” about which therapist to belief.

“At that point, when I went through the entire experience, I felt like we were being extremely hush-hush about everything. We didn’t want my name to go out. We were scared about which therapist to reach out to and who’s going to keep this information confidential. At that point, I went with the flow because I wanted help,” Deepika stated.

The actor added that it was solely months later that she felt her dealing with of the difficulty wasn’t convincing.

Deepika Padukone stated, “When I was reflecting on how this whole thing went by, I thought why did we handle it like this? And why were we trying to be quiet about it? Why can’t people know? Why shouldn’t people know that this is what I have been through. It also came from me wanting to try be as honest and authentic as possible.”

What additionally propelled the Chhapaak star to open up about her wrestle with depression was the disgrace connected to psychological well being, which make folks “suffer in silence”.

“It was also about letting people know that mental illness exists and it’s okay to seek help because most of us suffer in silence because it’s not something you seek externally so there is a guilt attached to it because you feel you are the only one going through it. You also feel like you are inconveniencing your caregivers and people around you. Me coming out was really just letting people know you are not alone and we are in it together,” she stated.

Deepika Padukone was recognized with depression in 2014. The actor shared whereas she discovered it troublesome to articulate the sensation of “emptiness and directionless” that she had been experiencing for months, her mom understood that Deepika wanted skilled assist.

She stated, “It basically started in February 2014. I remember waking up one morning with this strange feeling in my stomach and it’s a feeling I don’t remember having ever felt before. For days after that, I felt empty, directionless and it just felt life had no meaning or purpose. I couldn’t feel anything physically or emotionally. I just felt this void and it’s difficult to articulate to someone who hasn’t experienced it.”

The actor continued, “I felt this for days, weeks and months until one day my family was here and they were going back home and when they were packing their bags, I was sitting in their room and suddenly broke down. That’s when my mother realised for the first time that something was different. My cry was different. It wasn’t the usual boyfriend issue or stress at work. She kept asking me is it this or that. I couldn’t pin popint one specific reason. It was her experience and presence of mind that she encouraged me to seek help”

Deepika Padukone additional stated whereas she has come a good distance because the prognosis, there’s not been a single day that she hasn’t been reminded of her psychological well being. The actor stated she has to consciously work on her psychological well-being to not slip again into depression.

“Life post mental illness is a ‘before and after’. I had a particular life before depression and I have a very different life after that. I keep saying that there’s not a day that goes by without me thinking about my mental health. To ensure I don’t go back into that space, it’s very important for me to focus on the quality of my sleep, nutrition, hydration, exercise, how do I process stress and my thoughts and mindfulness. These are the things I have to do on daily basis not because they are fancy words or it’s cool to do this but I won’t be able to survive if I don’t do all these things,” the actor concluded.


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